my friends the memories . the time that lasted forever . and the days that went by slowly. the nights that will replay in our heads, all the days through our secondary school, as our best night ever ((:
true saying that, those years WILL end with great sadness . for all those years being together, soon parted . retard, sadness moments soon be over . time spent together may be forgotten but forgetting u will be never ;
i will miss you will miss calling u simpson/ mok . will miss fighting with you . will miss studying with you .
despite hating you at times, the feeling of love still walk through me . but now promise you that no more hatred , or grude between us .
cried when it's time to be parted . graduation day scared me most . i hate begining , cause i scared of ending .
sleepless nights make me think , that all those days hold me such a beautiful memories . i won't forget it from the day i'm alive. only will i forget it after the day i'm dead .
we had been friends forever . remind me the day we were together . those mischivious things that we have done through the year . won't ever fade even if sometimes u do .
with all the sentimental moments . we share our joy even our tears . with all these sentimental words . smile swept away, covered by tears .
so.. take care my darling bestfriends . i swear that i won't forget you guys .
knowing you was a beautiful scene ever ! ((:
bubyye, Dee .
2:46 am
Thursday, 9 August 2007
for my smileyy sister(: if u don't like it , tell me .
no matter how hard it is.. i will always stand by youe . no matter how people hate youe . i will always love youe .
if they called youe a bitch, i will call them bitches . if they look down on youe, i will look bottom on them .
i understand how youe feel, i understand what youe go through . but want by me is just STOP ! please STOP thinking about it ohk?(:
youe may not have to tell me your story from A-Z.. but i know that youe are hurt inside . youe may not even need to tell me from one to hundred . but i know that your are sad .
tell me your weakness . share with me your sorrow . i'm readyy to carry some of the pain that flow .
i will always open my door for youe to step in . lend youe my shoulder if youe need it . do share the pain, do share the hard time . cause youe will always welcome by me (:
don't say it if youe don't believe me . don't say it if youe think i can't be trusted . i won't force youe nor will i scold youe . just call if youe need me .
hurt? sad? maybe no one know cause they don't seem to care . but rmbr... i always do(:
fake smile? for the past days . don't smile for the purpose of smiling . cause my heart pain seeing youe in that wayy.'
end my poem here. hoping that my smileyy girl backk to her lips again . if youe love me ; that's all i wanted to see(:
take care love DEDE .
10:23 am
Sunday, 5 August 2007
FOR THAI FRIENDS(:
promises are always being kept , memories that won't fade . you were far from the my sight but not from my heart .
20 weeks has past.. for 5 months have gone . u guys are backk . and until now there's no return .
hoping us to meet again(: but when would it be?? happy moment that never fade . sad moment are equally same .
open my eyes, i didn't see youe . close my eyes, sometimes i do .
i may forget youe . but that's only after i die . can't wait for the dayy . to see all your faces again .
even we are far, chatting will never stop . chat, chat , chat .. . till we got nothing to sayy .
when would the dayy, for us to meet again??
there's no more words left for me . but always remember, how far youe from my sight . you will always be kept inside my heart(:
I MISS YOUE VERY MUCH !~ LOVE LOADS(: ALWAYS BE CHABBA !
11:37 am
Thursday, 19 July 2007
LOVE MY SMILEY GIRL ~ SHE'S BACK TO HER LIPS AGAIN (:
after days passes.. realised by me, only a few more weeks for me to be with you.. gotta be out soon, leaving you and all the juniors..
once i think again, it would be better for others.. but when thinking for the second time.. it won't be good for you.. how can i leave you?? how can i not seeing you? how??
this questions always plays in my mind.. i don't think i treat you as a friend? but i treat you as my bestest sister ever..
you are a friend thats for me everyday.. youe are a sister that know what to say.. i never give you enough thanks for all that you do.. i just want you to know that.. I LOVE YOUE ,
i am truly happy to meet JUEYIN.. joyful after knowing YOUE .. never will i regret.. after gotting a friend just like her..
youe are one of a kind.. people like youe are hard to find.. knowing you just like a fews days... but we already share our tears and even our smile..
i hope i never make you cry after you read it.. i would much rather die for it.. you are my sister.. my favourite friend.. i love you till the very end..
love by your DEDE(:
8:31 am
Sunday, 10 June 2007
birthday poem for ngam( :
a birthday wish from me to you(; a warm birthday that i gotta give.. not gonna make you angry, nor making u cry.. at the very own day, on your 18th birthday.
a kind soul that u have.. a friendly character that you got.. a caring person u are.. a nice person that i have met..
knowing you for the past year.. never you fail to accompany me whenever i having tears.. making my life even more better, by being with you all the year(:
i know you won't bare to see me alone.. cause u will always be my side.. every words that are written here, are specially made for your birthday..
i hope you like it cause every words came from my truly heart..
take care friend hope you like it.. love you. and once again, happy 18th birthday..
2:48 am
poem for Orh(:
missing you is forever.. forgetting you will be never.. knowing you for 3 days.. not visiting you was a bad behavior..
pink is the colour.. we friends will be forever.. hatred will be never.. but loved stay here..
you are loved, will never be hatred.. you are loved, will never be alone.. you are loved, will always be loved(: cause you the one who make me smile again..
we use to smile, taking photo together.. wanting me to sahre a cake with you during ngam birthday.. came nan and bank to join in.. making the day look even more better..
ending my priceless poem here.. missing all the day we were together.. hoping us to meet again, the sooner will be better.. wiil i remember you forever..
knowing you was a beautiful scene ever!
chabba
2:35 am
Monday, 14 May 2007
4 years we have been together.. few days later, everything will be over.. from 40 .. we endure till only 10 members left..
we were punished.. we were scolded.. but what we did was nothing.. cause no power have been detected..
from lance corporal to corporal.. from corporal to sargeant.. but that doesn't mean anything to us... cause nothing mean more then staying forever..
without np, u don't even know me.. without np, i don't even know you.. cause without NPCC we would never know each other..
i still remember during our last annual camp.. glide through kerosene that make me fall continuosly... that make all of you laughed without knowing all the pain that flow inside me..
but i love it.. cause that is the last memory that we had.. making all of you laughed non-stop.. is meant everything to me..
we are KILO.. and always be kilo.. we are always together.. and forever will be together..
but now i am wrong.. a few days later, everything gonna change..
every parade full of laughter, fighting will be never, but querreling will be ever when we were about to find out who gonna take that job up..
but during the last parade.. everything gonna be silent.. cause from happiness everything will be changed to tears..
even teachers and some students look down on np.. cause np meant nothing to them.. but for us nahh... np means more than a life...
but now Dee's here.. just to say goodbye.. remember my smile, and even my tears.. cause every of my beautiful smile, there's will always be tears...
take care my buddies.. loves all of you forever.. don't ever cry when u see me shed tears on our very last parade.. cause i know that i will miss every single thing in NPCC..
goodbye NPCC:) goodbye everyone:)
Dee.
8:28 am
Sunday, 13 May 2007
the more i look back on all the happy times.. the easier for me to realize.. that friends are more hellos then goodbye..
but during the last day.. everything gonna change.. there won't be anymore hellos but all the way will be bye..
all happy moments were destroyed, just when tears drop by to say hi.. not to remind about the past seemed to be very hard, cause all the moment that we had are still alive..
through out the days.. laughter and amazement.. joyful and tears,anger and fears.. were the days that make u and me cry when we were about to think again..
but.. why do i cry? isn't i always wanted to leave? i always wanted to make new friends right? i just can't wait to get out from here.. but why and why are now my questions.. why?
i admit that i hate school at times.. but i will never hate the teachers nor will i hate the students... cause all friends and teachers that i have known, will never be replaced in any way..
i will be leaving and all my friends will be staying.. all my friends i be losing is my greatest fears ever.. i promise i won't forget you as i go away.. and i promise i will be back to see you someday!
this is goodbye from me.. goodbye.. a final goodbye.. thinking of happiness and loneliness in the past few days.. that tears gonna mixed up with laughter that echoes the school halls.. as the cover closes in the final days of this chapter.. goodbye.
3:35 am
u still the same.. nothing change.. u only realize ur mistake just for a minute.. and now u forget about it again..
i still remember what u did in the past to hurt me. .u hurt me till i got nothing to say... i ignore u... but that doesn't mean i am lose.. cause i will never say i'm lose to a person like u!!
did i really have hurt your feelings? when i say all this? did i did somthing wrong now? that will make u hate me later?? did i? i am just wondering...
i want to make u happy but i can't cause every single of my heartbeat say that you are 'heartless' i am sorryz to say this.. u are just pain on the neck!
3:33 am
Tuesday, 8 May 2007
u would go anywhere, even to the end of the world just to find me.. u would be there be my side,when ever i am in need.. u would forever be with me, no matter hot or rain, just to make sure i am ready to face reality...
but now, i'm telling u that i need to go...
i know that we had been friends forever.. i still remember the day we were together.. And all the mischievous things that we have done through out the year.. all the crazyness among u and me... all the dances and the songs that were singing.. won't ever fade in my mind and forever will be never..
2 more months left for me to be in that school.. all the memories stay with me even if i lose.. i won't give up nor will iconcede.. just to remember all the past that we did..
with all the sentimental moments.. we share our joy, even our fears.. beautiful smile cover with tears.. when u see me walking out from the school hall at the end of the year..
i am telling u now.. i cry when i make this.. cause i know that i will miss u much.. graduation day is just so soon.. i won't forget u, not even your soul.. and for that, i will promise you..
we past the different path. .u go left while i go right.. just want by me is this.. don't ever shed your tears when u read it...
take care friends.. thank for being my friends.. ;) hope u like it, even if there any spelling or grammer mistake.. cause it came truly from my very heart..
i find no ryhmes searching for you.. i find no life when i am with you.. u don't love me.. but u just pretended to be..
u thought that it just a game between u and me.. but for me.. u are my heart, u are my soul... nothing is worth more than loving you..
just wanted you by myside.. but u just push me aside..
now i realize that u are no more for me.. cause u have hurt me throughly.. my heart that bleed is just like a knife that scar my handthat bleed onto the floor.. u scar my heart by slashing it for a million times..
i suffer through out my life.. just in order to get love from you.. but what i get in the end is just hatred.. if u wanna know, real love are just sucks and u are just like a piece of shit!
just get me a piece of paper.. and help me write 'mylifeSUCKS'..
disclaimer Deeyanah$$
10:57 am
if i could escaped from the world to my own creation as my own world... would anyone believed?
if i could create my own world..... i could have escaped from the current world now.. if i can't love anyone here... i could have love someone there.. if i been hurt everytime here... i know that i won't be hurt there.... if i been sad... i would forever be happy there.... if i been hatred.. i would be love there.. i only find peace in my own world right?..
if i am here... could anyone care to give me somthing that called "PEACE"? anyone..? i don't think so.. cause i know, i am not perfect.. i am just an ordinary person and not an extradinary..
so tonight...let me dream of my own world.. don't ever dare to control me in nor to try me out.. cause u are no one.. disclamer.
10:48 am
i found no regret searching for you.. but i feel loved when i'm with you...
you will always loves me no matter hot or rain.. you will always loves me no matter hard or pain.. and for all i know that, you loves me without stopping.
you have a sincere heart.. you have a beautiful soul.. you are my hero.. that no one can hold..
i loves you, you loves me.. don't ever take me for granted.. you loves me, i love you.. i slap you butt if you try to be funny..
all words are here from my very heart.. i hope you enjoy reading it and won't forget it.. i loves you, you loves me..
be without you is just so difficult for me to lives.. with lots of loves.
10:42 am
Thursday, 3 May 2007
please... please stop thinking about it ohk?? i beg u... please stop thinking..
just ignore the person who have hurt you can? u can still find someone else right??
you are bright.. you are pretty.. you are everything.. you are LOVED...
take it easy about the think you have gone through.. cause there still time to change it.. no one say that you lose.. no one...
and i promise you that no one are allow to do that.. cause i am standing right beside you.. you can't see me nor u can't hear me.. cause i am standing invisiblely..
u may not have to tell me your story from A to Z.. but i know that u are hurt inside... maybe no one know cause they don't seem to care.. but i always do..
share your sorrow with me.. i always open my door just for u to step in.. lend you my shoulder for you to cry.. u are always welcome by me..
just remember this.. you are always my champion.. no matter what.. u still my champion!!!
-NONG CHABBA.. SMILE* I M WITH YOU.. :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :)!!!
1:38 am
SPECIALLY MADE FOR YOU!!! :)
don't ever shed your tears just because of someone... cause they don't appreaciate the tears that you have wasted for them.. i hate the person who had made you cry continuously without stopping.. and i just hate the person who have hurt you much...
i know how you feel... i understand what u go through.. but i am worst than you...
i know that you are soft in the inside.. but i believe that you are stronger on the outside... don't care about the one who have hurt you... but care about the ones who love you..
you have your friends beside you... you have me with you.. have you forgotten about that?? i won't hesitate if your answer is YES.. cause i know that your answer will be NO.. i also know that your mind have faded away with all the foolish thinking.. and just want by me is... STOP!!
i just wanted you to know this, you still have others who care about you.. and don't ever forget this.. YOU ARE MUCH MORE STRONGER THAN YOU SEEM....
just remember this, even though you are far away from me, your face will always appear in my mind cause you are the one who makes me smile again!! god bless you pretty girl!! wish you all the very best!! missing always, remembered forever!! Loads Loves $chabba$ i will always be there for you, no matter how buzy i am!!! SMILE*** you are the best!!!! my MICKEY LADY!!! hope to see you soon!!! take care.. miss u!!!!
1:31 am
i dreamt of u last night........
when i see ur face, i will think about the days.. when i see ur smile, it will make me go round.. but when it was the day that u leave us, tears shed away without any laugh...
i never smile before u came.. u gave me hope and life again... u brighten up my day when u are here.. but now u bring it back, forever and ever..
will u make me smile again?? with ur laughter around me?? will u be at our side again?? will u come back??
i treasure u like a gold!! i appreaciate u as my good friends.. i will keep u in my mind.. i promise u, forever in my mind!!..
somthing is missing over here.. that forever will be u.. i love u, i miss u... no more smile and it will be true...
i want you to be here, with us through the year.. i think its not a year, but with us forever and ever..
you are the champion!! you are the champion!! you are the champion!! you are the champion!!
1:18 am
for 4i1:)
3 year has past.. together as one class.. we together as one.. no one can separate us..
teachers, friends, look down on us.. but we still united in class.. they insult us, they scold us, we are just stupid in their eyes..
5 months are to go.. still one-third of the class showing their egos.. they dont care, they dun bother.. they are not our brothers nor our sisters..
SPD makes us united.. N-League makes us LOVED.. Project work makes us frustrated.. But everything make it worth..
1:16 am
u can just tell your friends that im dead.. a broken ship is just wad i get from u.. i hate you for all my life.. u have forgotten me just like u have forgotten my name.. i wish u pal by my side, but u just wanted to push me aside... i just wonder wat shit i have done to u.. u avoid me as in im ur enemy... why u sound me as ur bestfriend?? is it just i like to help u?? or u like to treat me like a real friend? i just wanna know this eagerly.. u hate me or u love me..?? why do the status of bestfriend murder me inside and out..? u love doing this??or just simply ignore it?? i just want this to be clear in ur mind!!! stop avoiding me if u hate me.. stop avoiding me if u love me.. u are just pain in the ass.. scram.
1:09 am
will u miss me,when im gone?? will u never smile again? all alone in your bed?? thinking of how much u miss me?? will u never live ur life?? will u spend ur life waiting?? will u wait to die?? or u could die with me now?? what do u think of that?? do think im crazy?? maybe insane?? will u miss the way i smiled?? will u miss me when im gone?? or the way i laughed around u?? will u never sleep again? for fear they will be smeared with blood?? was my blood crimson when it stained aroun my body? or was it purple colour?? i dun know, because i dun remember,do you?? i cant remeber much, just peace.. do my constant qns annoy u?? too bad if they do, cause im not leaving here without u, not alone.. u left me alone u remember? my world was perfect before u came, i cursed the day i met you... i hate the way i need you, i hate the way i miss you, i hate the way i miss ur touch, i hate the fact that i was only free through death, u murdered me from inside out, slowly and painfully, i was only free through death..
1:04 am
even a simple hello is hard for me to say.. the torture u gave me scar my heart continuasly.. my heart that bleed will never stop flowing as it has been stab amillion times by you...
the times we spent together faded away, gone forgotten forever, erase from ur memory.. the sound of ur name kills me slowly, u murdered me inside out..
ur voice make me loose control, just like a knife that scar my hand.. i just cant glance my bloody eyes to see ur fucking face.. it just hurts me badly..
are you happy that u hurt me this much?? or just pretended not to noticed it..?? or the opposite way?? are you??
JUST GET OUT FROM MY FUCKING LIFE!! GET THIS FROM UR THICK SKULL!! THANX FOR STEPPING IN MY STUPID WORLD...
1:01 am
my eyes caught u, when the first time we met.. no one are allow to dry up my memoryand forever will be wet.. i love the way i know u, but i hate the way i miss u.. i will treasure our friendship together, and wont forget it forever.. i keep ur touch in my soul, and i keep your soul in my heart.. how far are you, yet your face are always in my mind.. hope too meet again,loves always, remember forever.. ~chabba
12:54 am
stupid life..
i hate my life.. they torture me, they blame me... they scold me, they beat me.. am i that bad?? or am i...?? why this thing happening to me almost everyday?? can i have at least a day of peace?? can i?? why all of u simply love to hurt my feelings?? just simply love to torture it?? why??am i that kind??or am i that bad?? please give me the answer a.s.ap..please.. hopeless biatch.
12:47 am
for thai friends..
i miss all of you in thai.. i just cant erase the memory that we been together.. it just so difficult for me to believe that all of you have gone.. i wish u pals are by my side.. i just cant bear to see all of u leaving us just like that.. tears shed down when i am thinking of you.. it make this feeling more and more painful.. without breathing, without talking.. i just wanted all of u to be with us forever again.. just remember this, i wont forget all of u even though u are far from my sight and i wont erase our memory ever and wont forget it forever.. $$ missing always, love forever..~chabba..
12:44 am
bleah~
the way u smile, the way u laugh, make this feeling forever last..
the way u speak, and the way u act. makes this feeling, a true fact.
the way you show me, that im loved. will always have, that special place in my heart..
u dun insult me. u dun put me down.. cause i know tha u hate, to see me frown..
the way u say goodbye, is like that ever lasting joy.. thats here to stay, forever more..
u say u love me. and i know its true.. but what will happen, when we say goodbye for the last time??
i hope that day will never come, but if it does, r emember me as i was, a true love for u..
12:41 am
stupid emo poem:)
why everyone simply treat me this way?? is everything my fault?? or do you thing i making up story?? i just don't know why.. crying of pain without knowing others.. but why am i crying?? wasn't im a fool?? do you thing i am playing, or am i joking?? wait.. why am i hurt? just because of someone..?? or is it because of the stain that cut hand that bleed onto the floor?? can someone explain to me please?? i am dyeing!! i dont care whether i am your good friend or what.. but i just wanna know, why u ask me, am i your bestfriends not?? just to prevent our friendship?? or for your own good?? do you know that the title of bestfriend kill me throughly?do you know? i don't think so..! and why u like to break your promises?? i just wonder why..am i too kind? or too helpful or watever that people like to stab on me?? or?? can u please explain?? disclaimer..deeloner..
12:38 am
Wednesday, 2 May 2007
basically this blog will only contain poems and drawing from dee!! enjoy.. just leave your comments..
